Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Patience, Hope and Fears

You would think that by now, more than 2.5 years into the adoption process, that I would have mastered the art of patience. I am better at it now than I used to be, but that's because I used to have ZERO patience. I have a smidgen now. Not much, just the littlest flicker of patience. Boy oh boy does that little bit get a workout though!

Although PBJ is seeing the gov't specialist today, it is highly doubtful I will hear anything for at least a week. The specialist will write a report and then the report will be sent to the judge (probably via slow mule mail) and then the judge will review it and make a decision. This could take anywhere from a week to years, and I am NOT joking! So patience, don't fail me now.

The other thing I am working on is hope. I am afraid to get my hopes up. Each time I do and give in to the rush of happy emotions, the fall down again is just that much harder. I do better if I stay numb. Unfortunately, I am a hopeless optimist and I can't help but get my hopes up. Especially this time. Is this too good to be true? Is it real? Can it finally happen that we will bring a child into our family????

I guess it's a good thing that we are extremely busy right now. This weekend is the final championship of the cheer season and we have to travel out of town for it. Then next week Katie has her tonsils out. (Poor baby!) The next 2 weeks will fly by.

Here are a couple of things Levi has said recently that have kept us all laughing (and wondering....)

Come here you little buttcrack (said to the puppy) .....(where did he learn that word? Katie!!!!)

Put some clothes on, Dude. (driving in the car, out of the blue)


Lucinda Naia said...

Maybe... just maybe this lawyer understands and will do the RIGHT thing QUICKLY!

Hoping for the best for you, PBJ, and your family....

Mamita J said...

I know the emotional trauma you're feeling.

Praying for you and little PBJ,

Susan said...

It is so hard to be patient when you're waiting for a child. I feel for you.

Maybe if they rule she needs to be expedited they actually would do it quickly! Here's hoping.

Priscilla said...

Oh wow! How nice it would be for the powers that be to do something that makes sense!!

Crossing fingers and toes...

Anonymous said...

Sounds like you have had some positive news lately...that's good. I can relate with you in the patience department...God knows it's hard sometimes.

I'm kind of confused about what has transpired lately; if a judge is going to be involved in making the decision, does that mean that the case does not go thru PGN? Or is the case still approved by PGN even after the judge rules favorably?

I think it would have been so good for you to have been there if the meeting had occurred as originally planned, it would have given you the opportunity to not only see the child but perhaps to get to hear from the BM her circumstances to have chosen adoption for her daughter.