Thanks!

Thanks everyone for all the kind words and support. I definitely have my days! It feels like the closer we get to bringing a child home, the more pressure there is. Funny, though, I am not afraid of bringing him home, I am terrified we WON"T bring him home. Every time I get my hopes up they get smashed to smithereens and I just can't take anymore.
I just want to get to the point where I am actually able to really plan and do something, not just think about it. I want ACTION! I want to dig in, make lists, go shopping, get ready! But I can't do anything until I know for sure. Limbo. No worse. Purgatory. That's what this is!