Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Gone, How, Why, I don't understand

Last week I was watching her, in the flesh, laugh, tease, walk holding onto a finger. She was so happy. So healthy. We were fighting to get the birth mother interview done before the Aug 31st deadline. We were lucky. The investigators agreed to release her case to allow the interview to take place and then the file would come back to them. The interview was scheduled for yesterday. We paid more money to bring in the birth mother, pay the attorneys, pay a translator so PGN could understand her. They all arrived. She was separated from the people who swore to protect her. She didn't understand. It all went terribly wrong. PBJ was seized by the state. Taken to an unknown orphanage. A homestudy for her was ordered. They think she wants PBJ back but they doubt she can care for her, which leaves that precious baby in limbo. 

She was so afraid of me, so scared to go to us and be held. What can she be thinking now? She must be terrified. Crying and no one listens. No one cares. She is all alone and we can't do anything to help her. Oh my God, please help her. Please comfort her. Please save her.

45 comments:

dana said...

Wendy, God knows where she is and HE is with her. I am praying!!!
I love you!!

Deb said...

Oh Wendy, poor birth mother, poor PBJ. I am sitting here crying for you all. I will be praying, pleading to God for you and PBJ.

hugs, many many hugs to you,
Deb

Susan said...

Oh my gosh. I don't know what to say. That poor child has been through too much.

I'll keep your family in my prayers.

chitwood said...

Wendy, I am so very sorry to hear this. Please know that I am keeping PBJ in my prayers.
Marianne

Anonymous said...

What a blow to your family. Praying for PBJ. Praying God wraps His arms around her and protects her.

Shelly (another GuateMama)

Krystal said...

Wendy, I wish that I knew what to say, but I don't. So much bad seems to be happening right now, and so many children are left hurting. I am praying for God's protection to be over each and every one of them and for Him to expedite their journey to where they belong. Shuffled around is not where they belong! I am praying for baby Brynn and for your family.

Julie said...

oh my goodness - I'm praying for all of you too - especially for PBJ and her safe return to her foster family.

Nina said...

PRAYING!!!

Cathie said...

I'm praying for all of you.
PBJ must be so scared and I am praying that the powers involved see what is right and she is back with her foster family.
Know my family is praying for yours

Anonymous said...

Wow, this is so heartbreaking. You and PBJ are in my prayers.

ManyBlessings said...

Oh. My. Word.

I feel like I am going to throw up.

I can't even imagine the horrible heartache and worry you are enduring. Please hon, know I'm praying. I wish I could find your baby back, but I'm praying that God will.

I'm so sorry.

So, so sorry.

dawn

Kim said...

I don't even know what to say. My heart just sunk - I can't imagine how you are feeling.

God knows what is going on - He is watching over her. I'll be praying for her comfort. How horrible, horrible, horrible.

Elle said...

I'm so sorry to hear such awful news. I wish there was something I could say to comfort you. I've been there. I know.

Terri said...

Un flippin real! This just makes me so angry. I'm so sorry Wendy. You are defiantly in my prayers.

StefB said...

I have no useful words. My heart is breaking for this child you love. And for your family. Please try not to miss all the joy of Ahren's homecoming. I don't know how, but I know he needs you and you need him.

Bobbi said...

I think I am going to be sick. How can this be happening to you, her, everyone?? She has been through so much. The birth mother must be so confused. They have put her through so much.

Why this now, when you are so happy?? Praying for you all.

Sarah said...

oh no... our worst fears!! Poor sweet Peri Bryn... I hope she feels all the prayers around her while she wonders what is going on in her little world. Sweet, precious girl.

Wendy... keeping you and everybody in my thoughts and prayers.

This is just not right...

Anonymous said...

This child has been through so very much. I'm so so very sorry Wendy. As your wise sister Dana said, "He is with her." We will all pray for her and you.

I wish there was something I could do for you, for her. It just breaks my heart, I can't imagine how you must be feeling. Let me know if you need anything.

Debra

Kristi said...

Aw Wendy - I am so sorry. Sending you prayers and hugs!!! Much love to your family!!!

Bamagirl

Angie said...

Oh no. This is horrible. I am praying. This is terrible. Please God please protect PBJ. She is innocent and has had to endure so much in her short life so far. Please update us as soon as you hear something. I am praying for you all.

Diana said...

Oh my word. As you well know, I've been through he** and back with the whole adoptoin game myself...and even I don't know what to say.

May God grant you peace. I'm certain he'll care for his little darling, wherever she may be.

So, does this mean it's all over with her adoption or is this just a major speed bump.

Angel said...

Oh Wendy. Nothing can be said. I can only hope and pray that she miraculously comes back to you or that her birth mother can care for her. What a heart breaking situation. What a crazy mix of feelings you must have going right now. Love to you. Angel

Andrea said...

Oh my gosh. I am praying for PBJ, her birthmother, and your family. Oh my goodness.

supermom said...

Oh no. That poor poor little girl. You and the birth mother. My heart is breaking for all of you

Sheila said...

Wendy,
I am a blog stalker. I never comment, but read and rejoice with you daily over your children. I have enjoyed looking in at your life through the window you have given us.
My heart breaks today for you. I want you to know I have been praying for you and PBJ ever since I read your post last night.
I am so sorry this is happening. Please know that God is not surprised and He is still in control.
Sheila

Anonymous said...

We will keep each of you in our prayers, especially little PBJ.


Gina

Pattie and Rob said...

Oh my Gosh, I can't believe it. How is this possible. My heart is aching for this sweet baby girl. Wendy, I am praying for her!!!
Pattie

Ellie said...

Call me.... When you are able...

Love you
Ellie

Kathy said...

Oh no. My heart breaks for PBJ and your whole family. I pray that she is safe and will soon be returned to where she belongs.

Anonymous said...

Wendy, I am so sorry. I will be praying for PBJ.

Hugs,
Rajashree

Kids Special Needs said...

So sorry Wendy. So sorry.

Natalie C. said...

I understand completely. That happened to my Mia. Our prayers are with you.

Anonymous said...

I have read your blog everyday for a year. Wow, words cannot say....
I hope PBJ is okay. I hope someone is making her feel safe and not scared. she is too precious, too fragile.
But can't the US Embassy do something?? These people have kidnapped your baby, and STOLEN the money you paid them for a service. Isn't this an international crime? Someone has to step in at some point! PBJ needs medical attention on top of it all.
I am crying for you. Deb

Mamita J said...

Wendy,

There are no adequate words...

My heart aches for you. I'm just sick over this. Know that I'm praying and know that God has not lost track of your precious daughter.

Through love and tears,
Julie

Anonymous said...

Like everyone else, I am crying and praying for you and PBJ. I just know, with so many prayers reaching out to surround her, God will comfort and save your sweet girl.

I can't begin to guess his ways, but in the end, I know that even the Guat gov't is not as powerful as He is.

We're praying, praying, praying...

amy said...

Im praying for you and your family and for PBJ

kathy said...

deberas lo siento mucho creame que yo lo siento mucho mas porque ella estaba con migo mi hermana logro que esta niña balbuceara lograra caminar comer sola entre otras cosas hemos llorado mucho por ella pero yo se que ella tiene un angelito que la cuida que por lo cual ella esta muy bien espero que nos regresen a PBJ mi familia y yo la extrañamos mucho..

Anonymous said...

Wendy,

I'm so sorry. Another mess from your fine agency, Main Street. You can bet they are to blame, them and Milagro Del Carpio. Its a sad day for PBJ, her Mom, you and your family, I'm so very sorry. We will get MS. I won't let them hurt another family. They need to be stopped, this can't continue to happen over and over again. Its not a coincidence, its corruption.

MBT

URBAN BLONDE said...

It's hard for me as an observer to wrap my mind around their reasoning so I can only imagine how devastating this is for you when you know all the players.

I hope you get more answers soon. Loads of positive energy sent your way, and to PBJ's birth mother, and to the people who have PBJ may they treat her like the precious angel she is.

Blondie

Sharon said...

I cannot imagine what PBJ is going thru. No child should have to endure such heartache. I am praying that God leads PBJ back to you very soon, she belongs with you.

Sharon

Mom&Dad to A & J said...

I am so so sorry. I do not have the right words to say. Praying for all of you.

Erin

Melissa said...

I am so sorry you have to go through this. I am praying for God's angels to watch over, surround, and comfort PBJ. Praying for you!

One Busy Momma said...

I'm so sorry to hear this has happened.
Keeping all of you in our prayers that this situation will be resolved.

Denise

GuateMom said...

Wendy,
My heart is breaking for you and PBJ. I can't believe this is happening after all you have done to fight for her to come home where she can receive the love and care that your family can give her.

I will keep you in my thoughts and hope that something can be done to bring her home to you.

Starfish said...

OMG Wendy I can't believe it. This poor girl has been through so much. But you are right, only God knows what the outcome should be. I don't know how you keep your shit together.