They are trying to drive me insane..

Sorry I have been rather quiet lately. There have been so many things going on that I barely have time to breathe, let alone type a coherant thought.  Let's see, where shall I begin....

1) The trip to meet Katie's agent in Los Angeles is coming together. I had been waiting for her father to pick a date because he had volunteered to take her. I waited, and waited and waited and he threw out many dates but nothing ever got set so I decided to just plan it myself. I contacted the agent and we picked a date. it turns out that the guy who 'discovered' her is giving a concert in LA on the 16 of May. So we fly out and get to see him perform, then spend the next day with the agent, some casting people etc etc. Then on Sunday we spend the day with my sister (Hey Dana!!!) and her family at Knot's Berry Farms. The rest of the visit is still in the works for planning. 

  I called her father (my ex) to tell him the plans. He still wants to go so he was going to make is own reservations. The next day I talked to him and he had reserved the flight, hotel etc. He was flying into a DIFFERENT airport, staying at a DIFFERENT hotel, and flying in on a DIFFERENT day.  I about pooped a brick. He hadn't heard a thing I said! I again told him our plans and he went back to planning. Yesterday he called to say he was booking the flight and hotel. He is still flying in at a different time (but same day now), to a different airport, but at least he is staying at the same hotel. Bless his heart, he does try, but he sure tries my patience!

2) My parents recently had their 50th wedding anniversary. We had been planning a family get-together in June but somehow the whole thing fell apart. We will still make a trip up there sometime soon, and we will still celebrate. I figure if they have been married for 50 years, they can celebrate for as long as they want!

3) I can't get one tiny stinking bit of information on PBJ's case. Every time I hear anything it is the same thing. We are trying to meet with the attorney and get an update. That has been going on for weeks now. I have e-mailed the attorney myself, in spanish and english, with no reply. I have begged, pleaded, threatened, and about gone postal, but still nothing. They think that if I flew to Guat and tried to meet with him it would help. OK, YOU can't get a meeting with him, how do you think I am going to accomplish this? Am I that intimidating? That powerful? (Well, I do admit I can be a bit scary.....in a deranged Mama Bear kind of way!

4) The final and most outrageous blow, the one causing me to lose sleep, feel sick to my stomach, and fear for my own sanity? Friday I got a call from our former agency for Ahren. You know, the ones who were arrested, charged with all sorts of things, made a plea deal and agreed to not work in adoptions? They were very sincere sounding and told me that our facilitator had accidentally sent them an update for us, and it said (I do not joke here) Your son is OUT of PGN, case approved and the resolution to be picked up Monday. Be prepared to wire final payment. 

  I listened, thanked them for the info, then hung up. I called Chris. I called my good friend Paula. I debated on what this meant. How could this be? Of course, the agency also wanted something in return. A statement form me that we w ere going to get our child and did not want any restitution. (The restitution hearing is this Wednesday) Can you see why I might be cautious?

  I sent e-mails, I made phone calls, I obsessively checked e-mail all weekend, trying to get confirmation of what they said. It was late on Friday when they called and I couldn't get in contact with anyone. Over the weekend no one in Guat works. Then today, when I thought I might hear something, every attorney and PGN employee was in all-day long meetings to hash out the new system. That means 3 days of agony. Three days of wondering, hoping, praying, dis-believing. If this is not true, it may just be the straw that breaks this camels back. 

 Reasons it could be true: We went into PGN on march 27th. Supposedly PGN was working on April 1-8 last week. 

PGN is under intense pressure to release files. They are signing out everything they can, or lose their jobs. 

   We are due a break. Seriously. We are sooo due!

Reasons it is NOT true: It is too convenient that right before the hearing it happens, unexpectedly, and makes it that we would not be due restitution. 

Nothing ever goes our way. We take the hardest road possible, every time.

We have not heard form any 'official' source that this is true.

Why would the facilitator e-mail the old agency and not me, when they have been dealing with me for many months now. Especially when the facilitator desperately needs the money from our final payment?

So, as you see, my plate is full and over-flowing. I can barely manage the day-to-day details right now. I promise that as soon as I have any real info, I will post it immediately. Until then,  I will be a basket case so don't expect me to be anything close to normal. It takes everything I have to just put one foot in front of the other.