Tuesday, March 01, 2011

Every time....

Every time I pass by the boys bathroom I have to flush their toilet.

Every time I do laundry I find surprises in pockets.

Every time I sit down on the potty (TMI?) someone yells Mommy hysterically.

Every time I think of Peri Brynn I now smile instead of cry.

Every time my husband tells me he loves me, I love him a little more (and he tells me all the time)

Every time I sweep the floors it amazes me how much dust, dirt and hair I get.

Every time I think about our journey to get Ahren I am amazed that he is really here and part of our family.

Every time I think of Ashley I remember the little girl who would cry with her hand on her forehead in her best dramatic role, going for the Oscar, and I smile. She was horribly adorable.

Every time that it would be a great day to sleep in, someone wakes especially early and rousts everyone else, who happen to be ravenous and only mommy's breakfast will do. Now.

Every time I consider cutting my hair that I have been growing for 2 years I think about how close I am to donating to Locks of Love and remember little Abby (who now has a gorgeous head of hair) and how that organization came through for her while she went through chemo.

Every time my head hits the pillow I thank God for another day and pray that tomorrow will grant me new strength, patience, and wisdom.

Every time I look in the mirror I can't believe I am a 47 year old mother of 5 (maybe 6) and not a 21 year old hard body anymore. It is so unfair!

Every time I smell my boys heads as I kiss them and they drift off to sleep, fresh from a bath and all warm and cozy, I feel more blessed than anyone on this earth.

Every time I think about my ex-husband I am thankful that we are friends and co-parents and that our girls have been our focus for many years.

Every time my kids drive me to the brink and I want nothing more than to run off and join the circus, I remind myself that I am a 47 year old mother of 5 (possibly 6) who is not a 21 year old hard body anymore. Rats! There goes my career on the trapeze.

Every time I blog I wonder if anyone besides my parents reads this and still loves me. Oh yeah, I am that insecure at times. I just hide it well!

15 comments:

Michelle said...

I still read your blog!

I donated my hair to Lock for Love about a year and a half ago. It was very emotional. I had been growing it for two years and cut it on what would have been my friend's 35th birthday. He asked his sister and I to donate our hair in his name.

It took a bottle of wine to get me to the hairdresser but I did it!! and you will too. I thought about cutting it several times. The no layer thing with very curly hair was rough!

Diana said...

Maybe 6? There's a story there and I want to hear it. I've been reading your blog since before Ahren came home and look forward to the day God grants us the opportunity to meet in person...hopefully on this side of heaven!

Mina's Mommy said...

Keep growing that hair! It is a great feeling donating to Locks of Love (and knowing your 4 year old also donated with you - hee!)...! It's about that time for us to consider donating again! Oh, and P.S. I still love you, even though you butt-text me all the time! :P

Reba said...

You know I am a faithful reader! And I was sitting there agreeing as I read every comment. Well, maybe not the ones specifically for your kids and definitely not the five maybe six comment. But the rest of it. By the way, if your hair is driving you absolutely bonkers, you can give to Pantene's Beautiful Lengths...their requirements are about two inches shorter. :) They focus on wigs for women. We have two teachers at my school right now fighting cancer. Anyway, you know I am here. :)

Kim said...

Just letting you know - I'm here - and I read every day!!!

ManyBlessings said...

Aw I just love you!! :)

Marianne said...

I'm reading every day and amazed at all that you do. I'm 48 and can't imagine how much energy it must take to take care of three little boys along with being there for those two beautiful girls. You inspire me and make me laugh!

gail said...

Faithful lurker here. I have been reading your blog for quite some time now. Can't wait for the day that you post PBJ is finally yours and you are on your way to get her. What a day that will be!

Misty McKibben-Melvin said...

I read your blog, it renews me...and I LOVE this post!

Ellie said...

Yes... Still read all the time... Love u more than you know... We sent Angelena's hair 2 times to LOL, 10 inches each time, and we can go another 10 again... My lil girly's hair grows like weeds...

3 little ones at 47 (soon to be 4)... dang, I have 2 little ones at 45 and can't seem to find enough time in a day...


and...

EVERY TIME I think of Angelena's Gottcha day, one of the things I think of is U~!

Mucho Beso Mi Amiga~

Cherrie said...

I have been reading your blog forever also!

My daughter and I both have donated to Wigs for Kids. Jenna has donated twice for a total of 36inches of hair! Hang in there, it is an amazing feeling.

Your family is adorable. I wish I had your energy...lol. Praying PBJ comes home soon.

Terri said...

Here, here! I'm a faithful reader and truly amazed in all that you do. I started reading your blog back when you were building your house and got hooked right away by your beautiful family and the love that you have for your children. I love your honesty and mommy humor. Your patience and perseverance amaze me. I have smiled with you and cried many tears as you've struggled over PBJ and Ahrens adoptions. I was super excited to read that your adoption of PBJ came back to light. I have a bazillion questions for you and keep checking back to see if you'll talk about them on your own, HA! I'd love to know how Ahren's health is and if you ever received any dx. Have you any idea how PBJ's health is and how she is doing since her injury? How's beautiful Katie doing all grown up, on her own and in college? How does Levi do it? He's got his hands full with his little brothers, HA! And most importantly, where do I send you some "crazy mom pills"? HA! Had to come out of lurkdom over your last post, the guilt was just to much for me. You're a fantastic mom and a total "RockStar" in my eyes.

Mark and Shawna said...

Wendy,
I am a faithful reader. I don't know how you have so much energy for all your life events. (AND I thought I led a busy life) WHEW!!
I will be 55 on Monday and have a 4 year old that I love to pieces. She is the center of our lives. I also take care of my 6 1/2 year old grandson daily and have my mother who will be 90 living with us due to her dementia. Wendy you are a beautiful woman that gives me much pleasure to have met you in Guatemala. I pray for the day PBJ will be home with you. You have a beautiful family and I ejoy your blogs so much.

Amy said...

Apparently you are not tracking your readers or you would know already that I "stalk" your blog. I love it! I feel like I know you and your awesome kiddos (so if a crazy woman ever wanders up to you and starts talking to you like they know you...it's just me ;). And on days when you don't post, well, how dare you be busy enough and not give me my daily laugh!!! Please don't stop blogging.
Hugs,
Amy

Dana said...

So, I don't read as much as I should, but I care even more than you know. I love you and pray for you every day. I smile when I think of you, but cry because I miss you sooo much!! you are my favorite sister!!
Love You always!!!